Saturday, January 17, 2009

Night time talks

One of the really down side of having a child who has had cancer....

Tonight, snuggling with Marielle in bed, she asked me, "Mom, when I die, will my room still be there?"

Of course, I gave the standard parent answer, "You won't die for a long time. You will grow up, get married, have children and die when you are very old. You don't have to worry about your room".

Her response, "Yeah, ok, but what if I die early?"

Now see, when you've had a child who has had cancer, you can't just shush that kind of question away. You can't say something like, "Oh, children don't die early" because you both know you'd be lying. Instead you take a deep mental breath and say, "Yes, honey, your room will still be there".

And that sucks. Even though your child is healthy. Even though treatment has ended, sometimes cancer "side effects" still come into your life.


  1. Oh- I can relate....
    I just checked in on your last it's tooth fairy time at yourplace for sure!! AND the room looks great....what was Marielle's reaction?
    XXOO from across the bay, M

  2. I cant imagine having to respond to that question. My prayers are with you and Marielle.

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